tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20198663852259210102023-11-15T23:51:52.465-08:00Bipolar Angel Of L.A.Hi! I'm coming to you from the City of Angels, Los Angeles.
I would like my bipolar readers to leave me comments on how you deal with this disease. I would also like to make friends along the way.
Artists welcome!Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.comBlogger252125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-62868098179833502352013-01-16T12:31:00.005-08:002013-01-16T12:31:56.953-08:00Apologies To My ReadersI humbly apologize for my crude language on this blog. I tried to delete it but I don't know how without my mac mini. I have a laptop now, and can't edit like I used to. I have had a hard summer and have gone through a lot. Please don't judge me for my language. I am a nice person and wish I could take it all back. I have been listening alot to Christian broadcasting and am trying to get well. I have been looking online for part time jobs, so I can supplement my Social Security. I am so scared all the time I can't make it anymore financially. I just don't make enough to live on, and I feel I am not able to work full time. I am petrified of being homeless with no money. It is terrifying to me. God Bless. Sorry again for my language.Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-58643963391967310032012-12-24T18:44:00.000-08:002012-12-24T19:18:11.143-08:00Happy xmas 2012Well, another year gone. I made it back out to LA with cats in tow. Bought an old 91 Dodge Ram Suv. Drove 3 days straight through hellish desert heat, praying and crying the whole way. Please don't let this truck break down, please don't let this truck break down please don't let this truck break down....my poor kitties getting sick. Especially Tigger. He was sick for a week afterward. I thought he was going to die from the heat and the motion of the truck moving on its bouncing suspension.
I have lost my mind or something. I drove 2000 miles to find my cats a home. I am now staying with my friend and her family. I am flat broke except for the small amount I get from Social Security. I am deadly depressed pretty much always, and consider suicide daily. I feel useless and stupid and have only begun to tell my strange tale of my strange summer. I ended up in 4 psych wards and lost my low income apt. that I lived in for 9 years. I made my cats homeless too. I am ashamed of myself and will slowly state my tale as time goes on.
I know I saw Jesus Christ himself perform street art for my eyes alone, all dressed in black. Back in black.Black turtleneck sweater, black slacks. Crossing the street, making his way to the 7/11. Stopped in the middle of the intersection and dropped his smoke halfway there, and stubbing it out with his black shoe. I told you it was a strange tale. God has a way of dropping in on unsuspecting people. Like me. Like the Virgin Mary. Excuse me! I'm 12! She should have said....hey Holy Spirit, I'm not ready to have a baby at 12! Different times and different culture.
AS to how I feel now ... Depression has a way of robbing your strength and will to live . I have low self esteem and am pretty convinced I am a loser and cannot do anything. I am timid and shy and hate life. I feel ugly and eat sweets too much. Every one was saying I was so skinny, so I have been putting on pounds eating junkfood. I cry every day. But hey! It's Jesus' birthday! Tra la! Listening to Christmas tunes while contemplating ending it all. How many others out there are feeling the same as me? I just want to be happy and have a home and I pray all the time and I feel stupid writing this. Crying over lost opportunities and lost children I chose not to have. Lots of guilt. Lots of self hatred.
Peace on Earth, Goodwill to men, and it's Christmas Eve. The world didn't end like it was supposed to, according to the Mayans a couple of days ago. Too Bad. Kinda hoping it would in a big way.....Merry Christmas andre Happy Birthday Jesus, loved the street performance that started this whole down ward spiral. What's the encore? Any clues? Love, Me.Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-43976327565601201422012-10-24T11:15:00.003-07:002012-10-24T11:15:51.268-07:00October 24, 2012I had a very traumatic summer, filled with bizarre happenings and things I don't understand. Like how people I have never met in my life just appeared to me out of no where. I have lost my apt and ended up staying with family in Mississippi. I have bought a Dodge Ram Suv and am going to drive back now, since it is not working for me here. My cats are with me. I am going to go live with friends near Long Beach, and try and get over all the bad happenings. Try to get over having my heart broken. Try to get back in school. Try to be more sane. <br />
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I was hospitalized 4 times in the summer, and cursed out all near and dear to me. Being bipolar and depressed is hell. I must have been delusional. I don't know. But I know clearly that some things actually did happen to me. All I can say is I am sorry to the ones I love, and hope to forget my broken heart. I really thought I was helping, and that the Lord was with me in what I did. <br />
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I have had many anxious moments since losing my apt, and had to go to the local hospital yesterday to get medication, because I feel paralyzed with fear. About what I am gonna do with my life, and how can I move forward. Living on Social Security limits me, and if I work, I can only make so much, or they take my benefits away. I gave up looking for work, and just became a recluse. Having a mental illness is so hard to live with. Something to hide and be ashamed of. Just pretend I am normal, when I am fearful and anti social. I am sad to be growing old alone, and terrified and hate myself. I want love and happiness like everyone else. All I can do is pray to God about it, and hope that I don't have to live in my suv. I contemplate suicide daily. Whatever. That is the way it goes......Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-16309636772982315202012-03-23T11:36:00.003-07:002012-04-05T00:04:58.973-07:00me being an artist....on the road to discovery<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEyOes8T8maJJqALMsahmPKYjfX0OtZAEvomaFkfJsJnf_YoRLcFe9u2E0-O8DMjNKXpmcOg_qt4ckf4c0NKVuMCSlfGS7WAWoSfM_TJfZq4o9lA1k4nC5MRzMct_A4CRwL3pU1kjdOJeR/s1600/100_7994.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEyOes8T8maJJqALMsahmPKYjfX0OtZAEvomaFkfJsJnf_YoRLcFe9u2E0-O8DMjNKXpmcOg_qt4ckf4c0NKVuMCSlfGS7WAWoSfM_TJfZq4o9lA1k4nC5MRzMct_A4CRwL3pU1kjdOJeR/s400/100_7994.jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-large;">i have been through hell, so if you don't like my language or my attitude, so what????????????</span></div>Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-2691673081390253852012-03-13T17:35:00.016-07:002012-03-23T06:25:07.341-07:00beware the ides of march~<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: right; margin-left: 1em; text-align: right;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table>Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-71420316166622383542012-03-12T23:57:00.007-07:002012-03-18T23:42:42.767-07:00run forrest, run!!!!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-size: large;">hi i'm forrest gump my mama said that stupid is as stupid does</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">hi i'm sandi</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>finding that clue from davinci is gonna get someone thinking...maybe they will put 2 and 2 together....<br />
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and i am part celt....i have an irish temper and have a fey quality to me. i would dance with abandon like that, no prob......<br />
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formatting this blog is a pain in the ass....i know i just wrote that i looked up the word fey in websters and now i can't find where i put it......ah hellllllllllllll.......wooooooooo here i go again........Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-29637812941356925732012-03-12T21:08:00.002-07:002012-03-15T19:52:42.527-07:00lead on, mac duff!well i looked up iberians on wiki and feel all confused. but i did see my answer castille was in it i noticed! i am vindicated! hahahah i have conversations in my mind with smart people like alex or tom in davinci code or van gogh or jim. i realized today something that kinda scared and freaked me out. that maybe jim really did come to me....i know it sounds strange. but i am a sensitive and maybe one day he was drawn to me. i remember making a crossword puzzle all about him one day while i was bored at work. i have it somewhere, i hope. maybe he noticed me back then. and like i said before i have been drawn to him for a long time as well...but while i was taking a shower today or last night i am lost in day and night now.....really light and dark.....<br />
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i just realized today when i re read that comment i made on one of my last postings that i thought i saw a lizard on my wall......i got scared and vunerable in my shower,....i have to send white lights to protect me. and peep out from the curtain and talk to the bad thoughts......god loves me god sends me white golden angels to protect me...like i am saying it right to whatever has spooked me......i am spooking myself just thinking of it....i wish someone could understand what i go through....<br />
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oopsssss back to the iberians. i couldn't keep up with all the history , but right at the very end i noticed it saying something about they had only two languages coming out of that region and others stayed hell i don't know what it means i am typing with one eye closed really.....i can't see very well now....need a break.....u go figure it out, mr dan brown big brain man......we are on a road to nowhere~~would u like to come along and help me sing this song...... baby it's alright......we can dance if we wannooooooooo!Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-68655687470718239962012-03-12T19:34:00.018-07:002012-03-19T00:07:46.647-07:00read the signs my amico mios! mio amicos bello bella beautiful friends in italy i love italiansmy dream is to go to florence italy and see all the art there. i tell everyone that. you cannot tell me i am not getting messages from another world....i just saw on abc nightly news that one of my genius heros art god has left us a message ..saying <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #783f04;">seeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk and you will </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">find </span>......haahahahahahahahahaa did i not just say that?///////////// i am tripping......i am losing time ~~~ i can't sleep and pace and dance at all hours until i collapse and sleep. my kitties curl up next to me to protect me with their purrs....time has no meaning...............<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">wow that was a fast answer to my plea, lord. u did hear me! thank you thank you thank you</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">and the holy spirit came down from heaven in the form of a dove PRINCE OF PEACE</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">i do believe! and if i become totally healed from bipolar depression and can lead a happy life, it really will be a miracle </td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">i feel so torn posting jesus sayings...i don't want to be judged as a crazy jesus freak. i am not! i just witness to the love and the blood shed.....he went to his death believing he was real. his disciples believed he was real<br />
he has endured all these centuries. he just talked of love that is all<br />
he was a beautiful and deep young man and caring<br />
what is not to like? cmon, just give him a nod or not.. ur choice. i wonder if he could dance? hehehhe!<br />
hey, u don't have to jump straight into believing in him. just know u have to work on urself from the inside. <br />
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there are other flavors out there. savor the flavor. just heard that on a commercial<br />
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hahahahah>>>>>>>>>> follow the wings......just heard that from a commercial...i am gonna turn the tv off now....i have to think about all of this......this is amazing and scary and i don't know how to prove any of it.....hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaadavincicode hahahhaha<br />
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just heard my name on jeopardy..my favorite game show...i test my brain with it. i test myself against the human computer ken jennings and ibm watson...<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">i b</span>een<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;"> m</span>eaning to say that.....!!!!! <br />
yeah no shit, sherlock......hahahahaaaaaaaaa<br />
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alex just asked this contestant named reid a sports question, and it came out like something something sandi , reid.......it was a question about sandy cofax.....am i insane????? please tell me someone!!!!i don't think i am! i think i am pointing the way just like da vinci.....<br />
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blows my mind!!!!! and i have been noticing since i have posted things and gone back later to re read, that ironic things pop out it me now. from hindsight. monday day quarter back. OH YEAH I AM BACK. oops. i was writing below. i went into somekind of geek alert mentality, competing on jeopardy...after i heard my name from alex t, i started playing. i tried to get on wheel a few months back, but froze....hahahah dumb ass...doh! DOH! hhahaha<br />
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hahaha question about ego and freud correct<br />
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ufos<br />
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i feel crazy......tonight live at 11 on EYE witness news, live live live one on one with obama<br />
mano o mano.....should i say hi hahahah oh hell no no hell no never back up...u crazy girl? now way. secret service? nein hell no non nyet no way jose nada uh uh oh helllllll naw!!!!!!! hel no hello obama. hi be strong. i am humble and stay hidden. i am doing this as art. do not be alarmed<br />
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the xfiles correct<br />
the walking stick? no leaf insect<br />
hilton<br />
that's it!<br />
porcupine<br />
that's right!<br />
twin peaks<br />
that's it<br />
king?<br />
no holy roman emperor<br />
mercury?<br />
no apollo 12<br />
opening statement<br />
yes<br />
original sin<br />
correct<br />
reid<br />
it's not coming to u? ocean state<br />
augustine?<br />
old style<br />
okefeonke swap yes<br />
merchant?<br />
valentine<br />
cobra?<br />
frog<br />
gills?<br />
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good subject people of europe.. we will be back in a moment.....hi alex...u rock..u r so darned smart i was in the audience...cant yell out answers though!<br />
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final jeopardy~~<br />
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castille??????? i am too addled to think straight i don't know<br />
who are the basques? no<br />
hiberians? misspelled with an h, reid<br />
no IBERIANs left a mark on their land........<br />
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don't know who they are, but i am gonna look them up....if no one believes me, oh well. i am my own sleuth. i am following oh enlightened one! davinci code. hahahahaha u thought u were writing fiction haaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahahaaa so funny....<br />
the universe is amusing me<br />
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dan brown would find this amusing....i really think so.......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #8e7cc3;"> DAVINCI HAHAHAHHAHAH YOU ROCK!</span><br />
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michangelos david next..he is so beautiful<br />
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just looked up the meaning of the word fey.....u know i just calls um as i sees um and sometimes i even surprises me!<br />
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i'm part scot too....and english.....so yeah, i can say i am FEY....if u look up the definition in websters....good ole dan'l webster<br />
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i got up today feeling awful.. dragged myself to take a hot shower and pretty much collapsed on the floor crying. i did that several times today, but i feel better now. earlier, i found out that i am totally tapped out on money. i have zip. can't pay my bills. tried to go to the farmacy to get some smoke to feel better, cuz i would rather be high and manic and dancing and laughing than sick and flattened like a pancake from depression. none of my cards went through fukkit.....on the way home, i kept getting impulses to stomp the gas and drive into something, or drive to venice and drown myself. i have to fight these thoughts all the time......<br />
i came home, and the new social worker here was in the hallway, talking to my neighbor...i walked past to get my mail, and my friend said what u don't talk? at which point i said very loudly, i am tired!!!! i am out of money! i feel like shit! i hate my life! my life sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />
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i was looking out my window, cuz i have my computer overlooking a busy la street, and tons of people were milling around, standing in line that was about 2 blocks long. i had to go see what was up. i usually don't move, even when the royals drove by or there are big crashes at the intersection or marathoners riding by on bikes .....i am in my ivory tower, looking down.<br />
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i got over there and walked up to this african american women in red and asked what was going on.....a new headquarters for the obama campaign....hahahhaa it is opening today and right now there is a huge line of people waiting to go in....i walked back to my place, and this cute young african american guy came running past, saying oh man there are so many people! and i asked him,what are u guys gonna do, just go in and look around? he said they were serving food and a movie and u had to have rsvp'd....he turned as he was running and added, hey maybe u can get in with ur charm! i said hey maybe i could at that!!!!!!<br />
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i went back home for a min and then walked back across the street and decided to test my specialness..just to see if something would go my way for once!!!!!!!! i walked up to someone in the crowd and said what do i have to do to get in here? someone said ask the lady with the clipboard...i am so jolly hahahahah i really am fey...finding that word makes me feel so much better about myself.....so i am laughing and talking to everyone and i said hey i am looking for the lady with the clipboard! i went straight to the head of the line.....ahhahahaah i laugh when people get scandalized by my behavior.<br />
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this other african american lady had the clipboard and i said, what can i do to get in this place? i live right across the street, and i think u should let me in! ahhahahaha she was very friendly and i was joking with her and this african american man in his 50s i guess.....he was amazed at how i just walked up and said to let me in....he said, we have all come from all over...the valley, etc.....and i said, well then that means i should be let in first, because i live right across the street! hahaha<br />
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he was getting upset, saying i have to go to the back of the line.......i was saying where is the food? i am hungry and i am BORED of never having any fun! i came here for the food! cuz i really am hungry! i haven't eaten barely anything but a piece of chocolate for 3 days now.....i just don't have the appetite, but i get really dizzy sometimes.....the lady told me they were just serving popcorn and soda with a movie....<br />
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oops ....there they are all starting to go in...........ugh the line is so long.....when i was standing at the intersection before crossing the street, i was talking to this young good looking guy with a camera slung over his shoulder, and i said, i am gonna be on tv, watch this! i really think i could get myself noticed too, cuz i am so mirthful......<br />
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the lady was saying i had to get a ticket and go to the end of the line and i said no, i think i should be let in first cuz i live right there! and pointed at my window....she said well if this was the south, they probably would let u in...and the man said no! go to the end of the line! hahahaha<br />
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and i said to her, i am from the south, and i bet he (indicating the man), is from either here or the north....hahahahahah men in this town have no clue how to be genteel....how many times i have struggled to open a big door, and they either push past me, or just ignore me. if i drop something all over the ground, they walk around me. and if i fell on the ground, i am sure they would just either walk around, over or right on me....i would have dirty foot imprints on me where they used me as a stepping stone...<br />
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no food? so i said ah bllllllttttt!!.....(raspberry), i will come back some other time for the movie! i wanted something to eat! and then i laughed and said to the man, hey i am just playing with u baby, and patted him on the arm, and as i was leaving, said only for him to hear, and please don't judge me, i have bipolar disorder....and walked home.....hahhahahah i got this urge to give them the link to this blog so everyone would read it... hhahahhaahha robin williams in his scot accent ah fuk naah!<br />
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i do some wacky things that amaze even me sometimes. i used to shoot pool all the time, and would dance while playing...and of course, i did it as a living...did beauty and dance contests when i was younger...i was very bubbly then<br />
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..hey everyone is yelling and honking horns out there...someone with a megaphone is out there talking away, and there is a camera van.....there is so much that goes on on this street, and i witness it from my window...it was probably on the news, but i have the tv off tonight. i am so tired of staring at it mindlessly...always on in the background mostly, but tonight for once it is off.. idiot box.. talking heads.<br />
bore bore bore zzzzzzzzz dying from boredom<br />
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i liked playing with this guy cuz he was so straight... he was shocked that i walked up to them like that. i have to have a sense of humor or i would do myself in from this constant pressure of depression.<br />
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people are still filing in over there,,,they are not all gonna get in those rooms, unless they cram them in there.....there still is a line a mile long.....living in lala land is like living in an ant hill....we are all piled in on top of each other...no wonder i freak out..the traffic is awful....my car is always fukked up....i have no money... lines and crowds of humanity everywhere i turn....i feel as if i am gonna explode or something!<br />
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..i woulda stayed and gone inside if they had real food!!!!!!!!! and if obama was there himself, i woulda got my ass pushed to the ground by the secret service, cuz i probably woulda walked right up to him and started talking......amazing.....<br />
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other times, i am like a wall flower and so shy i can't even talk or think of thing to say.....i am child like and blush and stammer...writing on this blog helps me understand myself.<br />
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kinda odd how i talk about obama, and today they open the headquarters<br />
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and i was thinking of my fireman amico that lives in rome last night, and today he says hi to me on yahoo messenger...we haven't chatted in months.....i wish i could pick the lotto tickets too my dear!<br />
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i've actually had dreams where i won the lotto and tried so hard to remember the numbers when i woke up....i think once, i did remember, and didn't play. but i think i checked the numbers and i didn't win. i find it odd that i can be so special, and think god is messaging me, only to turn around and have harsh reality bite me in the ass.....u would think i would be well off or something!!!!!!!Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-50702128481480772342012-03-12T18:45:00.000-07:002012-03-12T18:45:59.160-07:00i am so so so sorry!!!i am listening about the american sniper that went on a massacre, killing afghans.....our soldiers are going insane, trying to keep the peace and being hated and reviled. they are losing their minds and killing their families or innocent strangers they never met. it is so sad.<br />
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i am an american. i cannot stand these talking heads yakking about the presidential mud sling.....the gas prices, the endless blah blah blah.........they are all full of shit!!!! they give obama hell, and why is it all his fault? cuz he is a democrat and not a fat cat corporation?<br />
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u know, i am not a politico at all. not in any way. i don't really follow it...i tend to read about historical presidencies....but i watch the nightly news and try to stay online and be informed. i make my silly comments on yahoo news. hahahaha my tiny secret voice. yeah i am a guilty american...i will say my shame later.<br />
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but please!!!!!!! please listen!!<br />
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i am sorry my afghan friends, for my fellow american doing such a horror to you and your children. i know it means nothing to you. i am no one. but i am so sorry and please know there are people in this world that are crying over your loss. i know it hurts you so much. i am so sorrry!!!!!!!!!Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-71128546441798990522012-03-12T07:28:00.002-07:002012-03-19T00:42:03.073-07:00is every body in? is EVERYBODY in? the ceremony is about to begin.......WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">now, go forth to all nations and spread the word that<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;"> I AM REAL</span></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">we are all energy atoms bumping into each other</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">i wanna take the escalator up.....no I AM making my own way up to the stairway to heaven</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">i am weak...sos sos sos comprende? u heal me and i will be strong again!?!!!!!!!!!</td></tr>
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</tbody></table>Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-72921866958178527652012-03-12T05:44:00.003-07:002012-03-18T01:20:27.086-07:00still awake still here<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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early early morning time like this, i get paranoid and scared. my cats start acting weird too. elvis was very intently watching something invisible from his perch high on my book shelf. he was trying to jump down to see whatever it was moving...and i said, elvis, no baby, don't jump from way up there! and he turned around and took the other way down, via the tv and chair i leave there to climb on. he ran around and was chasing something.....something invisible to me...eeeeeeeeee!<br />
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i do humbly apologize to anyone reading this blog if i use any kind of language that offends u, whoever u are. i am just trying to write down my feelings as they happen to me. i am a good person and do not want to hurt any one's sensibilities or feelings....that being said...<br />
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happy anniversary to me. i realized about an hour ago that it has been 3 yrs since i joined tagged and made my nice online friends. i've had to deal with pervs, but i think i got them weeded out for now....even if i never go out, i still need some kind of human outlet. being a recluse and bipolar is hard, god knows!!!! they don't know though. i just didn't tell more than a few.....<br />
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</tbody></table> i have to have some kind of connection to the world in my own convoluted way.....maybe i will go lie down now.....i stay up for daysYeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-75734325310507794642012-03-11T14:43:00.004-07:002012-03-15T00:44:52.725-07:00no more stigma to mental illness...it is slowly getting therei have a really hard time sleeping through the night. i end up watching tv to all hours until i fall asleep on my couch. i can't stand being alone with my destructor thoughts..... so i fall asleep with the tv on to keep me company. yes, i know destructor is not a word. i make my own up sometimes. it is more like a word used for a big monster robot that kills....i must use good robots in my head to get the thoughts working correctly again.<br />
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it just so happens cuz of synchronicity, that two movies were on at once really late at night about living with mental illness. one was the movie Proof, with Gwyneth Paltrow and Anthony Hopkins, and the other was Of Two Minds, with Kristin Davis. she produced and starred in it. her sister suffered horribly from schizophrenia in it. i cried a lot watching those movies. tammy blanchard, who played her ill sister was really good. the scene where she completely loses it and goes off into a big delusion and has to be taken away by police had me crying alot. yeah, and that scene where she asks her sister if that was the sum total of her life....to be ill and alone forever....<br />
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i lose control myself and scream and go nuts when i can't take it anymore. i bash myself in the head or stab myself. being in emotional pain is so hellish when u r not well. u question ur sanity or just plain go off the deep end and have to be taken away to be locked up in the looney bin.<br />
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i hope she wins an emmy for her role. she was really good. very fragile. kudos!!!!!!!! hey tammy, kudos from the other side! u grok us!!!!!! and that part of the movie where she started getting well by being around animals is vital too. instead of killing off all the stray animals that evil humans just dump in the street to get rid of, why not train the animals for therapy? take them to mental hospitals and old age homes. honestly, it is sooooo obvious! in the movie, she gets to live at the end in a high end beautiful ranch with horses for people with mental illness. unfortunately, most people don't have that option. they have to go into board and care, or go homeless into the streets....<br />
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on the one hand, i see anthony hopkins being a brilliant mathematician, but he is so brilliant, he is insane, according to everyone in the movie. to me, he was just eccentric. i have seen much worse than the way he acted. to me, i am more like him. i am smart but lose touch with reality. i cannot conjure up mathematical theroms and publish them to astonish the world, but i do have some side to me that is dictated from the universe. i hear things and think things. i never properly educated myself because of my low self esteem and maybe laziness or shyness or whatever. i try and understand now why i didn't pursue higher knowledge when it is obvious i am clever. i am not ashamed to say it, and i am not boasting. me trying to over come my damaged ego has always been an obstacle to me. me feeling good enough about myself to go out into the world and shine. i am more like a hidden diamond in the rough. i am undiscovered.<br />
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i am confident that i will be heard one day. i just have to rely on God and know i am being looked after. my friends dump their stress on me, because they are poor too and living on disability like me. they can't make ends meet either, and because i am understanding, i hear it all. they hear mine too, i guess. but i try and stay to myself and deal with it myself. that is what i told my friend last night. i told her that she can't let what she is going through stress her out and make her more ill. i am trying to make her see that her suffering is coming from within, and to not let people get to her....it is hard. she is more emotional than me. she cries and is a needy person , and i go off like a rocket with my temper. i am feisty gal.........<br />
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i just had one friend call and bitch for 35 mins about her life. i don't like hearing all this bitching. i am trying to make dinner, but i listen anyway. then, i call my other friend to see if she wants some of the dinner i made. i hadn't heard from her in a few days, so i called to see if she was ok and if she was hungry....she launched into a big scene about her problems, and we were yelling at each other and i hung up on her. she came upstairs and we got into up here. i told her i am done with all the crazy bitches that live in this building, and how i always get all their problems dumped on me....i said to her~~do i come to ur place to bitch about my life? do i pursue u to argue with me? NO!! go home!! go home now!<br />
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i have a temper like a bottle rocket, and am good with the words.....whenever someone picks on me, i am like a tasmanian devil, defending myself and telling them off. my brother used to call me a wild cat, and an ex called me taz.....hahaa hey i just stick up for myself. if i had big muscles i would be kicking ass and taking names! walkin tall with a big stick.<br />
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anyway, my friend came back up again and we finally resolved whatever it is she is crying over and i sent her home with some chinese dumplings, rice and veggies stir fry i made.<br />
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i hunted through my frig for some chocolate, to make myself feel better. i could use a shot of liquor! damn i just want peace in my life. and some happiness! i'm not a greedy woman. i don't go date rich men. i just want a decent life like everyone in america.<br />
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ok, my monthly explosion is over. i wish men could go through some of the hormonal shit we women go through. if they had to have babies and do everything women do, they would go run like whipped puppies back to their mamas! women are much stronger than men. i am, anyway. and i get insulted when men imply i am a weak woman. i will kick all of their asses!!!!!!!!!!!Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-57360234844569974332012-03-10T19:04:00.006-08:002012-03-15T19:46:36.107-07:00need a booster shot of faith and love<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGR49uiKMDN9mo19DDWJNniEElbzhKeTLgv3DhvImK3l0mxtj6DPPfPuudJ_yASr0iuru0vBaoZ4IGh86H-uAK_9uW1GessVX5JIsAFlQUf1DadEofCuNirG4HQ6bRO9TYYf2qw7UemI39/s1600/0000thejoyof+the+lord+is+my+strength.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="266" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGR49uiKMDN9mo19DDWJNniEElbzhKeTLgv3DhvImK3l0mxtj6DPPfPuudJ_yASr0iuru0vBaoZ4IGh86H-uAK_9uW1GessVX5JIsAFlQUf1DadEofCuNirG4HQ6bRO9TYYf2qw7UemI39/s400/0000thejoyof+the+lord+is+my+strength.gif" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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that is why i post positive affirmations to myself. my inner think is so negative and questioning and doubtful...it helps me to write it out and see it for what it is...<br />
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hahhahahahaha i heard that on a tv show i think, once<br />
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so why do we all let ourselves be led around by the media and celebrities and how everyone looks?<br />
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celebrity driven society is a waste. i like real actors and real artists. people that stay grounded and good even though they are venerated by the public for their acting skills or what not. really creative people that are grounded, i believe, know inside they have a special gift bestowed them.<br />
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i think vivian leigh was a real beauty...she had such delicate features and sea green cat eyes...she was bipolar and had many ups and downs. i believe that movie she was in with brando...a streetcar named desire, showed a little of her inner self. and later a movie i forget the name...she plays an fading actress that moves to rome and gets hooked up with a gigolo, played by warren beatty.....she was good at showing her fragile side. she had many espisodes of mania in her life. olivier couldn't take it anymore....now HE was a hottie!!!!! sorry, i am a big classic movie buff.Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-12044831544343992062012-03-10T18:05:00.002-08:002012-03-11T15:40:46.850-07:00waiting to fly away home~<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">when i am down and suffering, i play this song to uplift me.it is happy and full of love..can't wait to reunite with my granny....i haven't see her since she died when i was 12....</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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i love this song...blue grass gospelYeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-10843475891522674402012-03-10T17:56:00.004-08:002012-03-15T20:09:50.887-07:00ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!i had a friend give me a little smoke as a kindness about and hour ago, cuz i told her what an irritable bitch from hell i am without it. as usual, within 5 mins of inhaling it, i feel my mood lighten and i relax some. i got up and started playing music and dancing and crying, all at once. being bipolar is like being on a never ending rollercoaster....wheeeeeeee! anxiety, fear, terror, depression, self hatred, feeling better hehehehe! dance and blast music and talk non stop....<br />
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fun city!!!!!!! it is like being in one of those horror clown parks.....lost in the hall of mirrors.....<br />
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they just installed this huge boulder some dumbass artist talked private donors into helping him move it to LA county museum....they donated 10 million dollars to move this stupid thing at night, because it is so big.<br />
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how many millions of animals are killed every year in our "shelters" of America....10 million dollars could build several no kill shelters....<br />
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jesus was cool, cuz that was what he was all about....he lived with the poor and loved the little children, and taught everyone to look after each other and forgive......it is hard, Lord!! i don't think we deserve any more chances, cuz i find human behavior abhorrent. but that is for u to decide, Lord.....<br />
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i told my psych doc that i despise and spit on the human race.....but under better circumstances, maybe my life would have been different, and i can only blame myself for becoming what i am. i drifted along all my life and never really learned a profession, and feel bad about myself......i do teach myself computer stuff and will always have a curious mind.<br />
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i watched this show about einstein last night, and how he kept calculating right up to the end....when u have a curious mind, it is like a hunger.... i mourn not having a nice bf or hubby that i had something in common with. i love history, art, animals, science, traveling, etc.....and would dearly love having my soul mate find me, but if it happens, it happens....<br />
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the most important thing to me in life right now is to be able to support myself and get myself out of poverty AND start feeling better. beat the shit out of this depression.....kick the hell out of it til it departs...<br />
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i sometimes conjure up an image of a baby me...about 2 or 3 yrs old, and i am mothering her....i am loving her and holding her and telling her how special she is.....i never got that ever in my real life, so instead of being forever bitter, i try and love the little lost girl inside me...i still remember to this day sitting in my granny's lap, and leaning against her big soft breasts...it is strange. when i got older, i told mama that she never showed me any affection when i was growing up, and she said, well, that was how i was raised! so it is sad my only memory of feeling any kind of physical affection was from my mama's mama, who didn't show her any affection! and it is like it jumped another generation, cuz mama was affectionate with her grand kids....hell, i am JAN BRADY!!!!!!!!!<br />
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i am still hearing messages, but it is normal words too....<br />
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like yesterday, i was filling out an online contest from my favorite tv game show for a trip to south africa...right as i am filling it out, someone kept saying africa over and over again on some news show i had on....i wish i would win!!!!!!!..if i did, i would take so many photos of animals...i always wanted to go stay in that hotel queen elizabeth honeymooned in...or was that charles and diana? oh well......i don't sleep much and forget things.....it is a hotel in a big tree, and giraffes walk up to it and stick their heads inside.....so killer!!!!!! those huge big soft brown eyes with those ridiculously long eye lashes.....i love studying animals..they are special and i hate to see them eat each other in a dog eat dog world....they have it so hard, and humans just dump on them and use them and beat them and do horrible things......i have become a new person after seeing so many posts on facebook from animal rescue groups....i am teetering vegetarian. i am a guilty carnivore. i thank my animal friends now that died to make me a meal. i say thank u to their poor brutal lives and cramped factory farms and pain and suffering. i hope to one day apologize as a thinking feeling human being to our always forgiving animal friends that share OUR planet....thank you...<br />
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i remember reading that book animal farm when i was just a kid....lord of the flies.....society gone bad in a big way. charlotte's web was such a great book to read when i was just learning to appreciate reading. just a little kid....all the little house on the prairie books.....just loved them all.....kids nowadays miss out not reading, they really do. robert louis stevenson, charles dickens, oh and i loved these so much~~the jungle books by rudyard kipling.....gunga din, oh i cant remember them all mowgli !!! and then i discovered sci fi.....it was like giving water to a thirsty man.....so many hours i spent reading 3 or 4 books at one time.....i haven't read anything in so long. i can't keep my mind on it, and so my books just sit there collecting dust.....just like my head! i will be glad when i can insert disks into my head and i can relive my happy times in wonderland and flying with peter pan in neverland...<br />
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today, i was scanning my tv list of what was playing on cable, and right as i see a movie named Motive, i heard a detective on this crime show say it....strange.....i don't understand it when i just get ordinary stuff....here i am trying to understand why the universe is chatting with me, and i get words that doesn't have anything to do with what my mission is.....crazy thoughts....crazy train.....damn i just don't know what to make of it.....<br />
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i am sensitive to sounds and smells and lights and thoughts and feelings......Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-28047263649584647732012-03-10T15:56:00.000-08:002012-03-10T15:56:57.458-08:00i hate everyone!!!!!!i am so fucking irritable all the time. i am trying to not buy any more smoke, cuz i can't afford it anymore. but it is the only thing that improves my mood. but it also has irritated my lungs and stomach from being so harsh on me and i smoke so much. i feel sick from that, but when i don't smoke, i am so irritable, i am like a caged lion, ready to shred whoever comes near me...i feel like i could just jump straight out of my skin sometimes. just full of hate and rage and senstive to everything. i watch tv and curse at everyone...<br />
sometimes i have to stop the venom building up in me before ballistic, for my own good. i have to stop and breath deep and try and relax my muscles. it works a tiny bit, but i am always wound tight. i wish i could have enough money to go back to my swing dance lessons, or take yoga classes. stress is killing me.Yeah, Me.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07950206539586508246noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2019866385225921010.post-2254761713743033172012-03-10T06:29:00.002-08:002012-03-11T15:14:40.039-07:00saturday mourningspent a miserable night alone watching tv last night. totally out of money. every month i go through this. living under the poverty line in expensive LA..i get so depressed that i don't want to have anything to do with anyone. hatin life. doin time here on this planet. i don't feel well enough or energetic enough to move forward that much. whatever. i try to be positive, but i just don't care anymore. i don't matter at all in this world. fact.<br />
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i have to remember that i am special and god loves me no matter how many humans are ambivalent and uncaring.....<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966;"> squinting at all of the planets high over our little</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #0b5394; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: cyan;"> blue marble</span>.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">..</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #9fc5e8; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> OUR CITY OF ANGELS</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"> all of them winking </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #93c47d; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">different colors </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">at me </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffd966; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Wish I had my own cosmic Enigma Box to decipher~~~~</span><br />
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we live in a beautiful universe.....we are its beating heart.......and we revolve around the sun......our star. we have our own STAR!<br />
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live in harmony with the earth and our universe, and you will hear the celestial spheres sing to you.<br />
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follow the cues to the path and be open to signs~<br />
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