I'm been down, so I went to one of my playlists. Christ's music, I call it. I listen to love and inspiration that Christ has instilled in these people that sing his praise, and I feel better. Like I'm not alone. It hurts being me, and I get too angry at the world and at God, and I turn away from Him. Stop going to church. Hating God. Wondering why I suffer when everyone else has a life. Nice homes, children. Then I realize that there are lots of people out there that are a lot worse off than I am. At times of pain, I have to listen to my worship songs and praise His Name. Thank you Jesus, for dying for me. I love you.