Friday, March 23, 2012

me being an artist....on the road to discovery

        this is for all the jerks that think they are better than me.....

                    u try to do this. u asswipes!!!!! hahahahaha

judgemental pricks HaHaHa

i have been through hell, so if you don't like my language or my attitude, so what????????????

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

beware the ides of march~

get a clue tiny brains ahahhahaha einstein rocks!

hahahahah cheshire kitty cat dude mad hatter hahahhaha
 get me outta here!!!!!hahahhah

leo...king of the jungle
lion of Judah
nice kitty
here kitty kitty

this is so trippy~i just scan through all my hundreds of photos and post stuff and add stream of consciousness post~ its

i just looked up ides of means when it is full moon...bad moon on the rise....theres a bad mooon on the rise

i knew that Caesar's wife told him she dreamt he was gonna be murdered, so she was tuned in that day!

do men ever listen to women?

NO!!!!!!!!! hahhahahahahaha

et tu brut?
think logically like yoda, the 4 eared alien cat
heam i mad as a march hare? am i sprung? spring has sprung ....mating season, the tides are changing.. mercury is in retro grade....full moon ...i told one of my neighbors just now that it is driving everyone in this building insane. they are all talking to me about how they can't take life anymore. they come crying to me. i am mother earth...i try and heal them and me......this is real...i don't know what it is driving everyone crazy.....that sniper....omgoshhh. cats are driving me crazy too and the winds that howl around this building and the traffic noise at rush is doing my head in. it is doing all of our heads in! i feel like there is gonna be a big KABOOM.......hello!!!!!!!!kitty i work on this blog for hours and destroy my hips and neck..i look like an old bent lady......

                                                                            nuclear hot potato

warm, warm, your getting hotter....oh you are on fire!! hot potato! 

whose trigger finger's twitchin'?

let's be logical about this mr spock

scary and fascinating and SCARY

This may be a tricky day, but if you're smart -- and, really, no one could ever say you weren't -- it will all work out just fine. Your main quest is to stay calm, even if you're baited. Remember to think logically.
Read Full Horoscope: click here
Mood: Calm
Lucky Color: Purple
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celestial spheres are chiming

~celestial spheres are chiming~

Monday, March 12, 2012

run forrest, run!!!!

hi i'm forrest gump my mama said that stupid is as stupid does
hi i'm sandi

finding that clue from davinci is gonna get someone thinking...maybe they will put 2 and 2 together....

just looked up and see the time change to 12 13 14.....couple mins ago

conan to tom...oh she'd go insane in florence! ahhahahhahaha
but in a happy good way....

your move, captain picard

I am so happy today!

i hide in my little circle of protection behind a mask of so called reality~~everything is broken up, and dances
i am serene...if it is real, so be it, if not. whatever. i am centered and ultra aware...i grok everyone.

                                                  the theory of EVERYTHING 

untangle the strings, 

                                        cheshire kitty hat dude...

 we are not worthy!


                                tea time

baby star....i am grokking u


if every one tuned in and danced and sang like we all live in an MGM movie musical, starring Gene Kelly, Fred Astaire, Ginger Rogers i know,  RKO.....Debbie Reynolds, Donald O Connor....etc etc.....just try and live on the light side of love, can we move mountains????? i am screaming down an empty one hears is like spitting into the wind....

but hey, i dance til i drop!

                 I am part Native American, and I dance like a medicine woman every night when i get my heals me.....

and i am part celt....i have an irish temper and have a fey quality to me. i would dance with abandon like that, no prob......

formatting this blog is a pain in the ass....i know i just wrote that i looked up the word fey in websters and now i can't find where i put it......ah hellllllllllllll.......wooooooooo here i go again........

lead on, mac duff!

well i looked up iberians on wiki and feel all confused. but i did see my answer castille was in it i noticed! i am vindicated! hahahah i have conversations in my mind with smart people like alex or tom in davinci code or van gogh or jim. i realized today something that kinda scared and freaked me out. that maybe jim really did come to me....i know it sounds strange. but i am a sensitive and maybe one day he was drawn to me. i remember making a crossword puzzle all about him one day while i was bored at work. i have it somewhere, i hope. maybe he noticed me back then. and like i said before i have been drawn to him for a long time as well...but while i was taking a shower today or last night i am lost in day and night now.....really light and dark.....

someone let me off this ill and sick and tired of being sick and tired

i just realized today when i re read that comment i made on one of my last postings that i thought i saw a lizard on my wall......i got scared and vunerable in my shower,....i have to send white lights to protect me. and peep out from the curtain and talk to the bad thoughts......god loves me god sends me white golden angels to protect i am saying it right to whatever has spooked me......i am spooking myself just thinking of it....i wish someone could understand what i go through....

oopsssss back to the iberians. i couldn't keep up with all the history , but right at the very end i noticed it saying something about they had only two languages coming out of that region and others stayed hell i don't know what it means i am typing with one eye closed really.....i can't see very well now....need a break.....u go figure it out, mr dan brown big brain man......we are on a road to nowhere~~would u like to come along and help me sing this song...... baby it's alright......we can dance if we wannooooooooo!

read the signs my amico mios! mio amicos bello bella beautiful friends in italy i love italians

my dream is to go to florence italy and see all the art there. i tell everyone that. you cannot tell me i am not getting messages from another world....i just saw on abc nightly news that one of my genius heros art god has left us a message ..saying seeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk and you will find ......haahahahahahahahahaa did i not just say that?///////////// i am tripping......i am losing time ~~~ i can't sleep and pace and dance at all hours until i collapse and sleep. my kitties curl up next to me to protect me with their purrs....time has no meaning...............
i was up til 10 30 am today and dropped down unto my couch and fell up at 5 pm and chatted with my neighbors about what i have been going through. i tell my friends all the time that god is real. i FEEL it!!!!!!!!!!!

i know it seems crazy,


i cry buckets and waterfalls

let go mom,  ur squishing me!

cosmic joke is on us if we don't WAKE UP!  and bring everything into balance

  and then,

             mona lisa smiled.....          hahahahhHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHHHHHHHHHaahahah

wow that was a fast answer to my plea, lord. u did hear me! thank you thank you thank you

and the holy spirit came down from heaven in the form of a dove PRINCE OF PEACE

i do believe! and if i become totally healed from bipolar depression and can lead a happy life, it really will be a miracle 

i feel so torn posting jesus sayings...i don't want to be judged as a crazy jesus freak. i am not! i just witness to the love and the blood shed.....he went to his death believing he was real. his disciples believed he was real
he has endured all these centuries. he just talked of love that is all
he was a beautiful and deep young man and caring
what is not to like? cmon, just give him a nod or not.. ur choice. i wonder if he could dance? hehehhe!
 hey, u don't have to jump straight into believing in him. just know u have to work on urself from the inside.

technology is not the be all
and end all

there are other flavors out there. savor the flavor. just heard that on a commercial
and as always, these are my thoughts, and i am just trying to say what is coming from the stream.....thank you god

                                                              stream of conciousness

hahahahah>>>>>>>>>>      follow the wings......just heard that from a commercial...i am gonna turn the tv off now....i have to think about all of this......this is amazing and scary and i don't know how to prove any of it.....hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaadavincicode hahahhaha

i have been hit like saul on the road to joan of arc.....

just heard my name on favorite game show...i test my brain with it. i test myself against the human computer ken jennings and ibm watson...i been meaning to say that.....!!!!!
yeah no shit, sherlock......hahahahaaaaaaaaa

alex just asked this contestant named reid a sports question, and it came out like something something sandi , was a question about sandy i insane????? please tell me someone!!!!i don't think i am! i think i am pointing the way just like da vinci.....

blows my mind!!!!! and i have been noticing since i have posted things and gone back later to re read, that ironic things pop out it me now. from hindsight. monday day quarter back. OH YEAH I AM BACK. oops. i was writing below. i went into somekind of geek alert mentality, competing on jeopardy...after i heard my name from alex t, i started playing. i tried to get on wheel a few months back, but froze....hahahah dumb ass...doh! DOH! hhahaha

hahaha question about ego and freud correct


i feel crazy......tonight live at 11 on EYE witness news, live live live one on one with obama
mano o mano.....should i say hi hahahah oh hell no no hell no never back up...u crazy girl? now way.  secret service?  nein  hell no non nyet no way jose nada uh uh oh helllllll naw!!!!!!!  hel no hello obama. hi be strong. i am humble and stay hidden. i am doing this as art. do not be alarmed

the xfiles correct
the walking stick? no leaf insect
that's it!
that's right!
twin peaks
that's it
no holy roman emperor
no apollo 12
opening statement
original sin
it's not coming to u? ocean state
old style
okefeonke swap yes

good subject people of europe.. we will be back in a moment.....hi alex...u rock..u r so darned smart i was in the audience...cant yell out answers though!

final jeopardy~~

castille??????? i am too addled to think straight i don't know
who are the basques? no
hiberians? misspelled with an h, reid
no IBERIANs left a mark on their land........

don't know who they are, but i am gonna look them up....if no one believes me, oh well. i am my own sleuth. i am following oh enlightened one! davinci code. hahahahaha u thought u were writing fiction haaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahahaaa so funny....
the universe is amusing me

            I AM AMUSED

                                             MAKE IT SO

        dan brown would find this amusing....i really think so.......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

                                 DAVINCI HAHAHAHHAHAH YOU ROCK!

                                 michangelos david next..he is so beautiful

just looked up the meaning of the word fey.....u know i just calls um as i sees um and sometimes i even surprises me!

i'm part scot too....and yeah, i can say i am FEY....if u look up the definition in websters....good ole dan'l webster

march 15...

i got up today feeling awful.. dragged myself to take a hot shower and pretty much collapsed on the floor crying. i did that several times today, but i feel better now. earlier, i found out that i am totally tapped out on money. i have zip. can't pay my bills. tried to go to the farmacy to get some smoke to feel better, cuz i would rather be high and manic and dancing and laughing than sick and flattened like a pancake from depression. none of my cards went through fukkit.....on the way home, i kept getting impulses to stomp the gas and drive into something, or drive to venice and drown myself. i have to fight these thoughts all  the time......
i came home, and the new social worker here was in the hallway, talking to my neighbor...i walked past to get my mail, and my friend said what u don't talk? at which point i said very loudly, i am tired!!!! i am out of money! i feel like shit! i hate my life! my life sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and came upstairs to try and smoke some of the ashes to feel better.

i was looking out my window, cuz i have my computer overlooking a busy la street, and tons of people were milling around, standing in line that was about 2 blocks long. i had to go see what was up. i usually don't move, even when the royals drove by or there are big crashes at the intersection or marathoners riding by on bikes .....i am in my ivory tower,  looking down.

i got over there and walked up to this african american women in red and asked what was going on.....a new headquarters for the obama campaign....hahahhaa it is opening today and right now there is a huge line of people waiting to go in....i walked back to my place, and this cute young african american guy came running past, saying oh man there are so many people! and i asked him,what are u guys gonna do, just go in and look around? he said they were serving food and a movie and u had to have rsvp'd....he turned as he was running and added, hey maybe u can get in with ur charm! i said hey maybe i could at that!!!!!!

i went back home for a min and then walked back across the street and decided to test my specialness..just to see if something would go my way for once!!!!!!!! i walked up to someone in the crowd and said what do i have to do to get in here? someone said ask the lady with the clipboard...i am so jolly hahahahah i really am fey...finding that word makes me feel so much better about i am laughing and talking to everyone and i said hey i am looking for the lady with the clipboard! i went straight to the head of the line.....ahhahahaah i laugh when people get scandalized by my behavior.

this other african american lady had the clipboard and i said, what can i do to get in this place? i live right across the street, and i think u should let me in! ahhahahaha she was very friendly and i was joking with her and this african american man in his 50s i guess.....he was amazed at how i just walked up and said to let me in....he said, we have all come from all over...the valley, etc.....and i said, well then that means i should be let in first, because i live right across the street! hahaha

he was getting upset, saying i have to go to the back of the line.......i was saying where is the food? i am hungry and i am BORED  of never having any fun!  i came here for the food! cuz i really am hungry! i haven't eaten barely anything but a piece of chocolate for 3 days now.....i just don't have the appetite, but i get really dizzy sometimes.....the lady  told me they were just serving popcorn and soda with a movie....

oops ....there they  are all starting to go in...........ugh the line is so long.....when i was standing at the intersection before crossing the street, i was talking to this young good looking guy with a camera slung over his shoulder, and i said, i am gonna be on tv, watch this! i really think i could get myself noticed too, cuz i am so mirthful......

the lady was saying i had to get a ticket and go to the end of  the line and i said no, i think i should be let in first cuz i live right there! and pointed at my window....she said well if this was the south, they probably would let u in...and the man said no! go to the end of the line! hahahaha

and i said to her, i am from the south, and i bet he (indicating the man), is from either here or the north....hahahahahah men in this town have no clue how to be many times i have struggled to open a big door, and they either push past me, or just ignore me. if i drop something all over the ground, they walk around me. and if i fell on the ground,  i am sure they would just either walk around, over or right on me....i would have dirty foot imprints on me where they used me as a stepping stone...

no food? so i said ah bllllllttttt!!.....(raspberry), i will come back some other time for the movie! i wanted something to eat! and then i laughed and  said to the man, hey i am just playing with u baby, and patted him on the arm, and as i was leaving, said only for him to hear, and please don't judge me, i have bipolar disorder....and walked home.....hahhahahah i got this urge to give them the link to this blog so everyone would read it... hhahahhaahha robin williams in his scot accent ah fuk naah!

i do some wacky things that amaze even me sometimes. i used to shoot pool all the time, and would dance while playing...and of course, i did it as a living...did beauty and dance contests when i was younger...i was very bubbly then

..hey everyone is yelling and honking horns out there...someone with a megaphone is out there talking away, and there is a camera van.....there is so much that goes on on this street, and i witness it from my was probably on the news, but i have the tv off tonight. i am so tired of staring at it mindlessly...always on in the background mostly, but tonight for once it is off.. idiot box.. talking heads.
 bore bore bore zzzzzzzzz dying from boredom

i liked playing with this guy cuz he was so straight... he was shocked that i walked up to them like that. i have to have a sense of humor or i would do myself in from this constant pressure of depression.

people are still filing in  over there,,,they are not all gonna get in those rooms, unless they cram them in there.....there still is a line a mile in lala land  is like living in an ant hill....we are all piled in on top of each wonder i freak out..the traffic is car is always fukked up....i have no money... lines and crowds of humanity everywhere i turn....i feel as if i am gonna explode or something!

..i woulda stayed and gone inside if they had real food!!!!!!!!! and if obama was there himself, i woulda got my ass pushed to the ground by the secret service,  cuz i probably woulda walked right up to him and started talking......amazing.....

other times, i am like a wall flower and so shy i can't even talk or think of thing to say.....i am child like and blush and stammer...writing on this blog helps me understand myself.

kinda odd how i talk about obama, and today they open the headquarters

and i was thinking of my fireman amico that lives in rome last night, and today he says hi to me on yahoo messenger...we haven't chatted in months.....i wish i  could pick the lotto tickets too my dear!

i've actually had dreams where i won the lotto and tried so hard to remember the numbers when i woke up....i think once, i did remember, and didn't play. but i think i checked the numbers and i didn't win. i find it odd  that i can be so special, and think god is messaging me, only to turn around and have harsh reality bite me in the ass.....u would think i would be well off or something!!!!!!!

i am so so so sorry!!!

i am listening about the american sniper that went on a massacre, killing afghans.....our soldiers are going insane, trying to keep the peace and being hated and reviled. they are losing their minds and killing their families or innocent strangers they never met. it is so sad.

i am an american. i cannot stand these talking heads yakking about the presidential mud sling.....the gas prices, the endless blah blah blah.........they are all full of shit!!!! they give obama hell, and why is it all his fault? cuz he is a democrat and not a fat cat corporation?

 u know, i am not a politico at all. not in any way. i don't really follow it...i tend to read about historical presidencies....but i watch the nightly news and try to stay online and be informed. i make my silly comments on yahoo news. hahahaha my tiny secret voice. yeah i am a guilty american...i will say my shame later.

but please!!!!!!! please listen!!

i am sorry my afghan friends, for my fellow american doing such a horror to you and your children. i know it means nothing to you. i am no one. but i am so sorry and please know there are people in this world that are crying over your loss. i know it hurts you so much. i am so sorrry!!!!!!!!!

is every body in? is EVERYBODY in? the ceremony is about to begin.......WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!

delicate and free and beautiful

big artist brain

purple prince of peace dove

now, go forth to all nations and spread the word that I AM REAL

we are all energy atoms bumping into each other

i wanna take the escalator I AM making my own way up to the stairway to heaven

i am weak...sos sos sos comprende? u heal me and i will be strong again!?!!!!!!!!!

a city rises from the sea

good morning from

the city of angels

  going up?