Thursday, February 25, 2010

Goodbye Romeo

Well, I have not been feeling too good lately.....I finished all my visits to UCLA and have no more money coming from them, and I never heard from the jobs for which I applied. I caught another cold last week, the second since Dec., and was feeling depressed all week long. Never leaving my apt.~ just always here all the time.

What makes me upset now is seeing on tv that this young beautiful actor whose dad is the guy that plays Chekov on Star Trek was found dead in this big park in Vancouver. He had moved there to start a new life, and his family was looking for him because they hadn't heard from him since Valentine's Day. He committed suicide. He had gone off his anti depressants a year ago and he had been depressed since childhood. I am very sad for him. He was handsome with big brown eyes and long wavy dark brown hair. I feel sad because I know how he felt. I wish I could have loved him and taken care of him. I know how it feels to be alone and lonely and depressed and without hope. I prayed to God to forgive him and take him into His Arms and to Heaven.

I think like this beautiful man that took his own life, and i feel sad for him and wish I could have helped him.

I'm sorry you did this to yourself, darling! I love you even though you are gone! I mourn you even though we never met one another!

I wish someone cared if I did it to myself. If I didn't have my online friends and my cats I would go completely insane from loneliness.

A kiss to you handsome stranger! You are like a beautiful Romeo to me! Your family and friends love and miss you!

I love you too! Goodbye and God bless you dear!


  1. hello beautiful.
    I just read that Marie Osmand's 18 year old son, jumped from his downtown Los Angeles highrise.
    In a way, it makes me very sad, but at the same time, at least he won't have to go thru life and suffer like we have.
    I know that God forgives those who are clinically depressed and kills him or herself.
    I can understand why they do it.
    I've been so close... I was literally on the edge of falling.
    I am still on St. John's... It's not a cure-all, but it helps a bit.
    I am going to try and incorporate raw fruit and veg into my diet. I hope that will help a bit as well.
    It's good to hear from you. I hope you had a nice Valentine's Day. I would have sent you a valentines day card if I had ur addy.
    But, never the less - Happy Belated Valentines Day:)

  2. hi dear thanks for u kind words....

    yeah i feel bad for those guys.....but i know how they feel too. depression is a killer for sure.....