Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Another Bummer Holiday Season Spent Alone..

I haven't been here to my blog since August, and actually found a couple of comments waiting for me. Didn't even know anyone read this crap I spill out. God knows even I can't be bothered to read it. Too depressing. I just fell so awful I thought I'd stop by and write something cuz I feel like death itself. Can't get off my couch. Just live on it with my cats. All three of us try to sleep on it together. Gets crowded.
I've stopped smoking pot again, cuz it was making me even crazier, if that's possible. So I've been clean since around June. Tried meds again, and have gone off them again. My friend Kim says I should get down on my knees and thank God for medication, but it never really helps me that much anyway. I'm miserable on it and off it. All I know is my life is totally passing me by....


  1. Hey babe, I am miserable with or without meds as well. I'm currently living in a prison cell of sorts (actually a small bedroom in my grandmother's house)... I talk to no one - ever. The only type of communication I have is with people online, but lately, it's more one-sided conversations.
    I was happy to see that you made a new blog post. I haven't heard from u in so long. I was worried about u.
    Not to make light of ur situation, but, don't feel bad about spending the holidays alone. Even tho I live with my grandmother, I am basically alone, cuz she doesn't talk.
    A lot of people are alone. I think it's one of the hardest (if not THE HARDER) life lesson to learn. But, jus know that ur blog is great, and u are even greater!

  2. Don't u get it? Ur an angel on earth. Ur words on this blog can help people. Maybe we can help u.
    U are beautiful - inside and out.

  3. OMG, u guys made me cry when i read ur comments just now.....i feel so alone in this world...thanks for the kind things u say......i don't even know how u found me...could u let me know how u found my blog?