blue holidays

went with my friend  to dinners that her family prepared this holiday season. i forced myself to go. her family is nice for the most part. but i am so sad that i am totally alone again and too poor to get my life moving forward. i hate the holiday season. it is torture. and my so called "friends" that acted like they wanted me and then forget me can all go to hell. i hate u all....bastards....

looks like it's me and elvis this christmas

                                         
that's ok...he's pretty darned dreamy looking