Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Jesus Christ I Can't Deal
15 mins til blind date. how many in the last few months? i do not feel up to this. i am crying. fuck he just called on his way. he has a couple of business doing something or other in film biz. i feel like death inside. i am such a fool. why i let that paul come near me i don't know. price of couple of jousts in the sack? severe and blinding pain and many tears. feel stupid and pathetic. i am a head case these days. terrible stress with money too. fukkit.