i had to go out and buy necessary things today. i am totally tapped out in my bank acct. i always run out of money around the middle of the month. it is very stressful. i can't keep up with my bills, and feel down hearted and useless.
it is hard to function in two realities because when i go out into the world, i feel confusion and un sure of myself. i think, geez u r nuts, girl! how u can give into all these delusions?
i watch other people, and wonder if any of them ever get messages, or just ignores them. i feel so different from everyone. i feel alien and alone in a crowd. i am square peg in a round hole.
square pegs square pegs.....